I hate cellphones. I don't like the idea that people can contact me at anytime. I especially don't want people to think I can be available at anytime. I want the few precious minutes I have to myself to be MINE.
And yet last night we bought a pay-as-you-go cellphone. It became pretty necessary for the next few weeks to have one. I suppose we could have got by without it. But we would have had huge blocks of time with no way to communicate which is definitely not good when trying to run a business partnership. It's usually no big deal for a day or so. But this long block of time was a problem.
We had to go to The Mall because that's where all the cellphone places are. We knew NOTHING about cellphones. So it was a lot of walking back and forth between stores with questions. Questions I really didn't feel like asking or having answered. I really just wanted to get something and go. I did not think it would be such a hassle. And they're really quite expensive for a device that causes brain cancer. Three year plans, flip-ups, cents-per-minute.... for the first time in my life I found myself wanting a monoploy so I didn't have so many decisions to make. At one point I just freaked and said, "This is too much useless information. I never wanted to have to take up space in my brain with this kind of information. I just want something I can use for a few weeks. End of story."
Later over dinner I said to Mr. Risk that the thing with me is if I'm interested in something I soak up information like a sponge, but if I'm not interested my brain rejects it. Probably why I'm not a good bullshitter. I just can't fake interest.