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Taken with the Great Wall DF-

Probably the last of the Candy Cart for a while. See also 1 | 2 | 3. I know I shot a bunch with the Mamiya but they're either sitting in that massive pile of unscanned film or they're not developed yet.

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My stomach has been turning circles for days. I had a few weeks of design work to do on The Book which forced the writing aside. The design stuff was successful, everyone's happy, blah, blah, blah... and now I'm supposed to be putting the finishing touches on the manuscript. Total block. Can't write a single fucking word. Staring at the screen watching the cursor blink. Feel like barfing most of the time. This whole process has been very disjointed and my mind is finally refusing to co-operate. I have errands to run today and will try writing again tonight. If that fails I'm going to take the day off tomorrow. Will try being a human who exists for no reason other than to simply exist instead of a "producer" who makes stuff and exists soley to produce. My balance is WAY the hell off.

Oh and I'll clean my office of all this fucking debris. Paper everywhere! I had a dream last night that my editor woke me up at 2:00 am to talk about edits. I was sitting on the floor surrounded by a paper mess. But then she wouldn't speak. I started yelling into the phone telling her to say something and was agitated that she woke me up at 2 am to talk about work and then left me hanging. I tried to get up but couldn't because there were spider webs everywhere.



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