Monday, February 6, 2006     « IF ONLY YOU WERE ME (Yeah, TOO BAD) »


I took this photo on one of the warmest and sunniest winter day I can recall, ever. It's sometimes hard to grasp that all this enjoyable weather is another sign of our demise.

Which leads me to my current song obsession: "Wake Up" The Arcade Fire

"We're just a million little god's causin rain storms turnin' every good thing to rust"

This song is filled with lyrical gems. I have more thoughts but am having a difficult time forming the sentences. Maybe later.

But yeah. Something about accountability for the consequences of our actions as well as responsibility for the state of our lives. I couldn't sleep last night. I've been suffering a great deal of really debilitating insomnia lately. The extremeness of it seems to be a direct counterpoint to the satisfaction of my achievements. So there's something in the hopefulness in the end of that song (fighting for one's life) that speaks to my determination to work my way through this and step up to who I can be without this shit.